humph.

it scares me how quickly i am able to throw aside my own goals for the prospects of love. i am definitely not the only one guilty of this..but i hate that about myself. i hate being co-dependent..i HATE waiting around and i HATE jumping to conclusions..but i continue to do those things.

i saw "500 Days of Summer" last night. In summary, a boy loves a girl who will not let herself be "caught" by a relationship.

real women arn't like this. real women never run from being "official" with anyone. real women are insecure and real women need the security that can only be achieved through a label.

that movie kind of pissed me off.

i will never be able to aspire to be like that..i can try..we all can try, but it will never happen.

joseph gordon-levitt is still really hot, btw.

our last.fm compatibility is low..

should i be worried?

i kind of wish this blog could be anonymous
so you wouldn't know that this poem is about you

no longer grumpy, kinda

had a conversation with my mother, over laundry.
we talked about "being alone"
i told her i could care less.

i just want to be a transient.
and have lovers, all over the world.

lil' wayne knows what i mean.

grumpy, kinda

i
wanna
but shouldnt.

so
i will try not to.



no
i will not try

i just wont.



photo by matt barnes.